7.20pm and I have pretty much skulked off to bed. I was more or less assaulted by wine lust in the playground this afternoon (I know right? Talk about inappropriate triggers!) No particular reason – I am a little anxious but that seems to be a fairly consistent theme in early recovery and the weather is lovely (a perfect occasion to… neck a bottle of wine and pass out, naturally) but I actually think it might just be my brain realizing, “We’re serious about this, are we?” and panicking. One day at a time indeed, and this is number 17.
Some Days Will Go This Way
Filling a New Cup 
It’s so very hard, I’m not on the playground any more, but book club is a very hard place to be… and Facebook… with all the comments about – is it 5 yet? etc… we have to be strong. we can do this!
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Yes! Places we love to be, places we hate to be, good days, bad days, morning, nighttime, weekends, weekdays…in new sobriety (hell, sometimes in OLD sobriety, or so I hear) it can allllll be triggering.
Yay, you for noticing and taking necessary measures!
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Thank you! Today was so much better. I hope yours was good too. xx
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Ahhh early sobriety can be such a bitch. The panic and anxiety are ugly beasts to deal with but seem to slowly get less scary as the days go on. I’ve recently had a resurgence of my depression, after feeling oh-so-confident in my sobriety… and I don’t really know how to manage it just yet, so I just breathe through it. Go to bed early. Take a bath. Eat 15 tubs of ice cream. Whatever helps in that minute, as long as it isn’t booze. Somedays that’s the best I can do.
Congratulations on 17 days, what an amazing thing! Be kind to yourself and keep on with the “one day at a time” mentality, it works. Sending you warm and happy thoughts to wherever you are from an incredibly rainy Vancouver.
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Thanks for this. I’m sorry you’re battling. Deciding to get sober has kind of brought me up against my depression, which I have just been drinking through for the longest time (not super helpful it turns out.) A bath and 15 tubs of ice cream sounds a lot better! Hugs to you and thanks again. I’m glad to “meet” you. xx
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You can do this – you ARE doing it! Cravings pass, but my god I know that feeling. I used to itch if my son didn’t go to sleep because I could’ve been drinking! Well done you xxx
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Yes! Trying to get through bedtime as FASTASPOSSIBLE so I could have a glass of wine. Madness. Thank you so much! xx
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